I have to write a letter or some kind of note just so that maybe it won’t feel like you’re gone, It will feel like another seasonal conversation we’d have.

So how was your birthday? I bet it was great. You know it sucks that we never get to talk more you know? I just miss the little things. You know you are one of the people I could never frown at? I remember talking to you or even when you would smile at me, I’d smiled back. Not because I felt like “oh someone is smiling at me I have to smile back” No, I wanted to because talking to you made everything better. No matter how short or simple the conversation… I can hear the “thank you” so you’re welcome(: I’m doing fine here, trying to keep up with you with these good grades, but I miss you! You want to catch a movie? I want to do something, it’s weird not hearing anything from you. It’s weirder you not being here… nope you are here…. We promised we would see each other more, as impulsive as it was…it was still a promise  I have to mention everyone else who misses you. I can’t even imagine how your family feels but my heart goes out to them. Not meeting your family still bothers me, It really aggravated me that I couldn’t muster up the courage to say anything to them. Hayleigh I know you are somewhere out there..You just have to be… You’re not gone… you’re here…with everyone.. in our hearts, in our minds.. I’m proud to say that having you on my notebook reminds me not to be so hard on myself and have a good time. I’m sure everyone else has been influenced by your beautiful heart and gorgeous mind. Now there are some people that never met you and used your death as an opportunity. As wrong as it is there are people out there who do that, to gain sympathy, to gain respect, whatever the case may be they aren’t bad people..I don’t know how to explain it to you but those people just do that. Also you have a nickname “baby girl” most people call you that now. I can picture you giggling and smiling whenever you would hear it, a lot of love came out of that.. a nick name..who knew?  
Now at first I just wanted to type this “letter” convincing my stubborn mind that you are still here with us in which you are. Though physically you aren’t.. I miss you I miss you I miss you! I can’t say it enough and I’m not the only one. I miss you caring about me whenever I was down even when I would just not speak..I miss everything… I can still remember us in band with everyone.

As corny and cliche,
You are our firework Hayleigh, I will never let go of my memories with you.

-Breanna